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Oddly reclusive
Jul. 13th, 2006 11:47 amWeird day. I decidedly do not want to go to theatre camp today (I'm teaching music to the ages 5-10 set in the afternoons). I want to hide in my room all day. Alas, not all that possible.
It could be that I think my brother is angry (not at anyone in the house, long story). I realized this morning it's not just that I dislike being around angry people, but rather I'm actively afraid of them. It triggers this 'hide under my bed' reflex, sort of a feeling that if I'm quiet and unnoticeable enough, they won't be angry at me. Huh. Odd self-realization. I'm not sure where it came from or what to do about it.
Instead, I believe I will go to camp and then rehearsal, like a good girl. And memorize. A lot. We're off script tonight for the second half of the play. We were off script for the first half last night, and I -think- I did okay. I only had to call for line a half dozen times, and that's with most of my lines being paragraphs in length to be delivered at high-speed babble. Well, off I go to make a lunch for myself and singsingsing!
It could be that I think my brother is angry (not at anyone in the house, long story). I realized this morning it's not just that I dislike being around angry people, but rather I'm actively afraid of them. It triggers this 'hide under my bed' reflex, sort of a feeling that if I'm quiet and unnoticeable enough, they won't be angry at me. Huh. Odd self-realization. I'm not sure where it came from or what to do about it.
Instead, I believe I will go to camp and then rehearsal, like a good girl. And memorize. A lot. We're off script tonight for the second half of the play. We were off script for the first half last night, and I -think- I did okay. I only had to call for line a half dozen times, and that's with most of my lines being paragraphs in length to be delivered at high-speed babble. Well, off I go to make a lunch for myself and singsingsing!
